2002-01-03 - 12:46 a.m.

Murky, and I wish I had more beer. I can feel myself getting into a funk and I don't like it. Maybe I've been in a funk for awhile and I haven't realized it. I gotta keep telling myself that I'm not a pussy 'till it passes. Nothing is more pathetic than a 24 year old with a low self image forcing his depression on others, bathing in their sympathy, and ultimately turning aggressively and sorrowfully away when the pity dries up.

Fuck those people. Act like a man. Suck it up like the rest of us. I believe that.